"The world is so big,
so complicated, so replete with marvels and surprises, that it takes years for
most people to begin to notice that it is, also, irretrievably broken. We call
this period of research “childhood.”
There follows a
program of renewed inquiry, often involuntary, into the nature and effects of
mortality, entropy, heartbreak, violence, failure, cowardice, duplicity,
cruelty, and grief; the researcher learns their histories, and their bitter
lessons, by heart. Along the way, he or she discovers that the world has been
broken for as long as anyone can remember, and struggles to reconcile this fact
with the ache of cosmic nostalgia that arises, from time to time, in the
researcher’s heart: an intimation of vanished glory, of lost wholeness, a memory
of the world unbroken. We call the moment at which this ache first arises
“adolescence.” The feeling haunts people all their lives.
Everyone, sooner or
later, gets a thorough schooling in brokenness. The question becomes: What to
do with the pieces? Some people hunker down atop the local pile of ruins and
make do, Bedouins tending their goats in the shade of shattered giants. Others
set about breaking what remains of the world into bits ever smaller and more
jagged, kicking through the rubble like kids running through piles of leaves.
And some people, passing among the scattered pieces of that great overturned
jigsaw puzzle, start to pick up a piece here, a piece there, with a vague yet
irresistible notion that perhaps something might be done about putting the
thing back together again.
Two difficulties with
this latter scheme at once present themselves. First of all, we have only ever
glimpsed, as if through half-closed lids, the picture on the lid of the jigsaw
puzzle box. Second, no matter how diligent we have been about picking up pieces
along the way, we will never have anywhere near enough of them to finish the
job. The most we can hope to accomplish with our handful of salvaged bits—the
bittersweet harvest of observation and experience—is to build a little world of
our own. A scale model of that mysterious original, unbroken, half—remembered.
Of course the worlds we build out of our store of fragments can be only
approximations, partial and inaccurate. As representations of the vanished
whole that haunts us, they must be accounted failures. And yet in that very
failure, in their gaps and inaccuracies, they may yet be faithful maps,
accurate scale models, of this beautiful and broken world. We call these scale
models “works of art.”
-Michael Chabon, The
Wes Anderson Collection
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